ME-MO-RY

我的好朋友，好姐妹，她。。。。

2011-05-15T01:28:00.003+08:00

我的好朋友，好姐妹，她。。。。

很爱星星。。。
很爱迪士尼。。。
很爱米奇老鼠。。。
很爱孙燕姿。。。
很爱她的妈妈。。。
很爱她的爸爸。。。
很爱她的婆婆。。。
很爱她的哥哥。。。
很爱她的家。。。
很爱漂亮。。。
很爱圣诞节。。。
很爱blingbling。。。
很爱巧克力。。。
很爱台湾。。。
很爱手表。。。
很爱被宠。。。
很爱她的男朋友。。。
很爱她的星星表。。。
很爱被疼爱。。。（但是不可太明显）
很爱白色和红色。。。
很爱旅行。。。
很爱发闷气。。。
很爱自己承受问题。。。
很爱冷战。。。
很爱当我令她生气时不理我。。。
很爱玩弄我。。。
很爱收包裹。。。
很爱以很婉转的方式关心她爱的人。。。
很爱说“不要！”“走开！”“讨厌你！”“没有！”“哪里有”。。。
很爱逞强。。。就算她很难过。。。
很爱给我很恐怖的眼神。。。
很爱耍酷。。。

但是。。。我很<3她这个sister~。。。她让我学会很多东西。。她让我心情不好时变好。。哈哈。。她会配合我的无理取闹。。她常原谅我的无理头。。她能忍受我的唠唠叨叨。。她会对我发脾气。。她会偶尔恶心一下。。她会默默地考虑一下我的感受。。她知道我想什么。。她很难明白，也很简单。。她是个很好的人。。谁欺负她。。我压死他 .\,/. 我欺负她？！！我会尝试一下压死我自己。。

她。。是我很重要的好朋友。。。她。。名傻女人司空星儿。。

.....

2011-05-14T13:43:00.001+08:00

the heart are truely broken when the messages are being read once more. y the hell do u breaks the heart that alrd so wounded..your buddy needs support, not scoldings from u.. idiot!!! then you said sorry.. whats the point?!! whats the point... where is the point........I am very... very.. very.. sorry...

The purpose of living?

2010-12-23T02:39:00.002+08:00

Siok Kuan asked why I sounded so emo lately..
I don't think I am emo.
Just that, I don't see the reason for me to live ...
Life is very... fragile, but I am very ...tired?
I don't really hv an idea on what's my next decision. But we'll see..

I thought..

2010-11-03T16:00:00.002+08:00

I thought I am already fed up of how u let this friendship flow...
I thought I am pain enough to walk away...
I thought I can do it with a new bunch of friends...
but fact is friends maybe, can be replace, but a bestie could never be replace...
Maybe is all my problem...but u know, whole life I never feel any bit of anger on u..
Today, I did. Angry till the extend where u can still make me cry??
You said u know how to arrange your time.
but how many times when i finally got some freedom, you chose someone who can be with you everyday.
How many times when i wish to talk to you, you just didn't even wanna reply a simple msg...
How many times when i need you when i got whacked up by mom.... you just hv that mind set of " nah.. since is so normal, why do i care"
I've tried my best standby in case anything u need.. and i stop doing that since im back..
I really hate coming back because everytime Im back, nothing good will happen.
Sometimes I even believe that my relationship with people can only be closer when there's a distance.
You seriously hv no idea how much u've hurt me without knowing you did...
I thought you won't have the ability to do so already.. but to replace a bestie?

............

I miss u so much, buddy.

2010-10-06T04:46:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder besides sleeping and keep my self busy, what else can i do to stop those memories to have any chance to sneak into my mind. The days haha... how sweet and happy. I understand that this is what we call --life. As i always mentioned as well, life goes on, and also move on...

Time rush by and people will have their own life. As long as you are happy, I am always happy too. Seeing both my important and very important buddy happy is good, of course. =) But awhhh..those days sticking around like 20 days a month were all past. I cannot deny that I am a very attached person.=.= Despite meeting ya'll once a week or 2 weeks, is like brrhhh... =.-ll i always have too much to tell and too little time for the gatherings. /.\

Most importantly, i dont speak out my mind. I hardly tell people i miss them cuz is quite =.-ll awkward but i am now missing ya'll so so much alrd. Aiks. I want taylors.. i want uk=.= BIG SIGH!!

=(

pc lee

what do you want from me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-19T07:57:00.002+08:00

Again and again
YOU never give me a reason why YOU always do this to me.
I had enough challenges or so called experience on this alrd.
ENOUGH.
I can't even breath today. I need a reason.
...............................................
i didnt even know what to say.

Emo laaaa

2010-08-07T19:04:00.001+08:00

陶喆 - 黑色柳丁

专辑： Power Of Live 影音记录珍藏盘

词:陶喆，娃娃曲:陶喆

今天我心情有一点怪怪

可是说不出到底为什么

好像有一点悲哀的征兆

可是病因不知道

头上有橘色的加州阳光

我的口袋只有黑色的柳丁

我只有一个蓝色的感觉

不要问我为什么

很想说但又觉得没有话好说

我只恨我自己逃不出这监狱

或许我是个没有出息的小虫

不该一直作梦你不是个英雄

叶子用坠落证明换季

可我昏昏沉沉没有办法醒

什么英雄

还是你会要放弃

天是亮的却布满乌云

所有焦距被闪光判了死刑

什么英雄

我看你不过是佣兵

我只想哭只想哭只想哭

今天一起床我就头痛

不管吃了几瓶药都没有用

心情有一点莫名的焦躁

你离我越远越好

外面有橘色的加州阳光

我却躲在自己孤独的黑洞

我只有一个小小的要求

就是请你leave me alone

很想说但又觉得没有话好说

我只恨我自己逃不出这监狱

或许我是个没有出息的小虫

不该一直作梦你不是个英雄

叶子用坠落证明换季

可我昏昏沉沉没有办法醒

什么英雄

还是你会要放弃

天是亮的却布满乌云

所有焦距被闪光判了死刑

什么英雄

我看你不过是佣兵

我只想哭只想哭只想哭

今天我心情有一点烂烂

可是说不出到底为什么

好像有一点悲哀的征兆

可是病因不知道

我只想哭只想哭只想哭

只想哭只想哭只想哭

怎么了，你累了，说好的幸福呢。。

2010-07-14T10:51:00.002+08:00

On your birthday. The idea of present i should get for u.
Thinking hard will you even appreciate it.
Have you ever put the bracelet on ur hand before. I doubt.
Is that shirt suits well on u?
Should I send it to u? Do you even need it.
Well, being realistic is not your fault. It's how the nature of the world works.
The last time i see you were a year ago in our fav hang out place. together with my sis and bro.
hahahaha... how nice. When will be the next time? you said u dont know.
I miss you a little bit more this year. Especially on those excuses u will give when you're late. =S
I hope you are happy with your life now.
Back u up always.

他们说,你要试一下去争取，我说，凭什么。赌不过。

There's an end

2010-06-27T07:58:00.003+08:00

I know nothing stays constant.
Just never thought that this could end so quickly.
Hopefully after October, my life could get better.
I'm really tired of all these.
All what my friend told me.
"you will encounter sudden UPs and sudden Downs this year until October"
I love roller coaster, but not the one in life. cuz im really tired already.
I hv phobia. A phobia that not everyone has it.

-pc-

2 years , 2 months, and 27 days

2010-05-27T19:29:00.002+08:00

Opened my diary. (maahahah.. yes I do hv a healing diary, where I talk to my self inside???? o.O )
Well, yeap. It took me 2 years, 2 months and 27 days to move on to another stage of life. =)
I guess I've chosen my cousin's advice- " MOVE ON"
Despite the fact that I am still hollow, empty and clueless, I am at least, sometimes - happy.
Humans are just too complicated for me to understand and learn. So, be dumb. XD

Btw.... on the other case I am still stuck and I am obviously not moving on to anywhere. =.- MY DISSERTATION PROPOSAL arHHHHHHHHH .. X.x

So gonna doomed=.-

God bless.

Pc

[justamarshmallowgurl]Add oil to the egg

2010-05-23T07:33:00.004+08:00

If you are reading this you would know this is a special entry posted up to give u full MORAL SUPPORT in your remaining exam papers. =) Good Luck

We all dislike exams, but without exams, there won't be a chance for all of us to ever know what's the feeling of study hard, playing hard. If without exam, we would not fully utilize the library. Without exam, we all would not know how many times in life you will smile genuinely for little things and events. Many people often tell us to cherish everything we encounter. On the surface exams seems to be so evil where it rip off our happiness and precious time. Think about it. Often during exams is when you know who really lend their hand to you in hard times, exam gives you the greatest satisfaction upon your years of hard work in proving your self to you, your family and friends.

Most importantly, with exam, that is time where we got one extra excuse, well, a good type of excuse to pamper our self with outings and shopping when its over. That is when we fully enjoy the process of shopping, pampering, sunshine outings and laughing our heart out- because we earn all of these process with hard work, and we do not take them for granted.

Common, put a smile on the face. After all, this is our last final exam within the near future. RITE? You can do it. Trust your self.

(^,^)

-pc-

[justasmalltownboy] 1 + 2 = 26 Huh?

2010-05-16T23:18:00.003+08:00

Aah.... Remember those time when 1 + 2 = 3? Those simple yet nice times? Don't you just ever want to go back to there and then. But you are all grown now and nothing is as simple as it seems. When did the qualm starts to kick in? When did when a friend calls you out for a drink, you immediately assume that there's an agenda behind that. I seriously hate that feeling but things change, time passed, and human too change. There's nothing that last for a lifetime and I would not want anything to last forever. So the next time if you get into the state of mind and wished that if only you could turn back time then think again, NO INTERNET...

Cheerios..

-n-

[justamarshmallowgurl]- deepest depression

2010-05-16T15:29:00.004+08:00

A girl walks without her soul after her second completed exam subject.
She's not sure about why she is taking exam while she has a minimal interest in this certificate at all. This is the first time this girl is so worried about - STUDIES???? holy sh**, that's such an unbelievable event.o.O.
Facebook Lucky Daily predicted that her luck is only 16% that day. She was not in a perfect mood. As she walks to Sainsbury, a bud called and that is when her true happiness is- to prepare food and hanging around.
Pathetic little girl, she thought she should not complain anymore about the current life. she reached home and wanted just to speak to her siblings and cousin about how stress she is about this exams. So she invited the group stated as 'family' in her messenger list.
Worst thing is coming and she is happily typing--'ahhhh... i hate exam! i hate masters! i'm so scared that i will fail!!'
Shyuan: ' jie i said something to her that i need to be responsibled for today. '
The girl stopped typing. The other siblings and cousin continue talking some other rubbish rather than listen to her.
Then, her sister started another chat box and told her that she scolded the so called mom.
Marshmallow got shocked. Her sis told her that she scolded the 'mom' after a series of 'action movies' that caused a 17 years old boy cried over the phone pleading her to fetch him back from shop. A 17 year old boy- an age where usually guys will only cry over issues like breaking up with his girl friend or stuff.
The most interesting part? What did sister scolded?

[One day all of us will leave you. nobody dare to voice out their feelings to you. i am sorry we dint meant to hurt you we still respect u as mum, so nobody want to tell you how we feel about this family]

Did this change the future of the 5 kids who genuinely hates the family ever since they know there're something call friends? Answer- No.

What happen then? Answer- more action movies, more dramas in front of outsiders, more humiliations to the world best dad.

Facebook updates by sisterss the girl saw in her facebook:

younger sis[God is so fair...once HE give u wealthy, HE will take away ur happiness...once HE give u happiness, HE will take away ur wealthy... it's fair n square... if i can choose, i rather choose the poor but having happiness... wealthy cannot buy happiness but happiness can bring us to a wealthy life.]

Elder [i felt like my face and head are no longer my face and head], [afraid to sleep]

Marshmallowgurl felt so helpless that afternoon. She threw 2 word in the family conference in messenger and she left the box- stupid family......

Her sister continue passing a message to her. A massage from her dad. [just take it as dog barking. You guys thought i don't know how you all feel? you though i don't know ur sis keeps studying so that she can stay over there? Good also. Study, earn some income, leave this house. and he will not blame us if we don't wanna come back visit.]

Gurl finally shed her tears. A moment where she feels money is what He gave. But happiness is what He takes away. She asked if she can share half of the mother with smalltownboy- helpless yet she must be strong to continue wearing the mask of a happy look. She love her father so much that she know she won't leave the family. The father and the friend is the only reason of the scary amount of stamping with the word [ HEATHROW] in her passport. Gurl's helpless. She made her self drained and fall into a deep sleep.

-pc-

[justamarshmallowgurl]- mixed feelings

2010-05-11T07:13:00.002+08:00

It's already 12.14am in the morning and I am still awake.
You must be thinking, isn't it normal for me to be awake at this time.
NO, no more a mid night ghost ever since I knew some new buddies.
Specifically, I am already awake for more than N hours. Fatigue. Drained.
The words I saw that day is still in my mind-
when you are earning something, to lose it is complementary.
Everything now seems to be too perfect and I am so happy with my everyday life.
Until the extend where..... I am afraid of losing this scenario again.
The last time I have this very-full-type of happiness was 2 years plus ago?
It was very satisfying. I am still a pure optimistic person, but I lose them
after few months and ever since every laughter or smile is hollow. =S
The emptiness is indescribable. Under the sun I have to be strong,
happy, optimistic normal girl. Below the moon, I am justasmalltownboy's companion.
We share different life, but with a same type of personality-minus the EQ part.

-pc-

p/s: I miss you, and you, plus you. =(

[justasmalltownboy] - Let's play case scenarios

2010-05-08T19:35:00.002+08:00

Ever felt like you were on top of the world and suddenly you slip and fell, fell right to the bottom of the society ranking. Now there's nothing odd or unusual about this situation, we've seen it in Pixar, Disney and whole lot of other movies. But the question is, in which situation do you wish you are you in when you fell. Let's see.

Scenario 1. Your mum's a slight abusive control freak but you are rich. You have good friends and families who constantly helps you out as much as they could. Your family can provide you the necessities to send you abroad for studies or holidays and you have good communications with your siblings which you actually don't like them just because they were watching pps while you are downloading illegal music, movie and stuff. Oh one more thing, freedom is something you really value because it's limited just like Singapore having extra lands.

Scenario 2. You have the best mother in the world. Literally the best. When you can't get waffle's from A&W, she'll whip you up some waffle-taste-like-food from the kitchen from scratch or mid night supper at 3pm just because you are hungry. You do pretty well in academics and you have a few superb friends and families who takes you in if you asked them. And freedom to you is abundant. But like all good things in life, there's a catch. You got a bastard-coated-filled-with-idiotic-and-bastard-aura person as a brother that when you tell people you wished he was dead you really meant it. For every expense you make, you got to learn to earn it back, pocket money wasn't something that exist in your dictionary.

I knew this two person who are each in one of the scenarios and at anytime of the day, they would gladly swap their life. But at the end of the day, they would probably realized that they made the biggest mistakes in their life. So, just remember, life was never fair to begin just be glad that you probably had the best of friends and families that others never knew.

-n-

happiness, miserables, and sadness

2010-05-01T05:51:00.003+08:00

I remember i used to blog, always, about anything, everything.
I stop or perhaps, seldom blog since months ago? and this entry used up 3 nights? =.-ll
This happened because often I felt so miserable that I do not know how to put them in words.
Of course, some people will start creating stories behind you, saying that you are emo again,
bla bla bla bla~ and so on so forth.
Well, is hard for people who does not have friends as their priority to understand how we feel. =/
Different people has different priority, some family, some boy friend, some money, some themselves, but for people like me, ever since I know the fact that my family is different, friends are my priority under any circumstances. I do believe that friends, are the family members you choose.

Happiness

Over the past two months, people around see me climb up the cliff, and see me fall again, again again and again. They tried to hold my hands from the cliff, and sometimes i hold, but at times i refuse. When I refuse, I slipped again. However, I am really glad that they never give up sparing their hands 24-7. Time passed, things happened , and that's when you realize who is always with you. I jumped out from the circle. =) I see how selfish am I when I once told them I were right on my decision.

It's over. Do you know the most beautiful thing will appear after a set of incidents? Clear water after tsunami, rainbow after rain, clean air after tornado, faster performance PC after reformat???@@ Ahhh.. talking about rainbow.. I miss rainbow T.T . Anyway, thanks for the ceiling and ears.. hahahahaa.. I suppose this is life. Now i prefer seeing others putting an upward curve on their face with their lips. =) that makes me satisfy. After all, 2012 is coming~ cherish what we have haha..

Miserables

Nothing t be doubt, it taste really awful. Miserables makes me change from bad tempered, to know how to control it, from controlling it, back to bad tempered.. and now i am still learning.

Miserables , makes me grow.
Miserables, is exams and assignments and my dissertation. Never in my study life I ever feel this way before. I have no confidence to my self at all, unlike usual. Every day I feel like giving up. But everyday I am pushing my self as hard as I can so that I won't leave any regrets.

Miserable, an important compound that could make u feel a bit of sweetness when the taste of bitter is gone. =)

Sadness

Listening to some songs and the heart is pinching pain. Tell me when You will realise how much i appreciate a person, and as for You, tell me when can we meet again.

Strong

I must be strong. Many people complaining that they are the clown and bla bla bla bla.. Think from the good side, How many people in the world has got the ability to be a clown? A clown is a talent, my friends. Clown does not cries at night. Clown smiles at night when they recall people's happy faces. =) cheers world. night world. Hv a good rest.

A tip towards a better day.

Wake up in the morning, look into the mirror, look into your own eyes and give ur self a smile. A good day starts with a smile from people. =)

Blog, Do you know..

2010-04-22T12:17:00.002+08:00

Blog, Do you know I don't dare to write on you?
Do you know I've reach the max point ...
Do you know I need to tell some to people but I don't know who?
Do you know I understand everyone has got their problems just like me.
But I know they've got their way to minimize the stress too.
DO you know I hasn't found one?
I need a pair of.. good ears.. that will really listen rather than just for the sake of getting update.
That's very gross....

I don't know...
Ey, but do you know, with just 4 words, i can tell all i wanna tell? hahaha..
shhh.. now you know, keep to your self =)

short update

2010-03-03T11:41:00.002+08:00

I've been stressing my self since.. ever since October 2009.. Never had a night i sleep in a peaceful mind. The wave of life goes really unstable. It's just like tsunami perhaps? Turbulence comes and goes, good times never seems to go long enough. I can't deny that I am living like a zombie everyday. Afraid of losing every important things or people in my life. Thus holding them really tight. Till the extend where I gave them pressure.

I am learning to trust, loosen my palm, and convince my self that there's no such word as forever. But i want them as long as possible. I tried not to take everything or person for granted. I tried appreciate everyone , and of course, I hope people will not take me for granted as well. As it really hurts sometimes.

Every night bad dreams come and go. I found my self sleeping in fear.

Good thing is, during this period of time, I think i realise many of my weaknesses. In short I am not a good person =) .

Many incident happened this week. News of earthquake, people's loved ones get sick, or leave them. I will not let my self drown any further. Is time for me to rescue my self from a cliff. I must survive. I've got many more people for me to take care off. I have my responsibility which I must not forget.

Even if I'm living in a zombie way, I will be a happy zombie. =) cheers world.

nitez.

I will !! yes i WILL

2010-02-25T02:18:00.001+08:00

At first I was afraid
I was petrified
I kept thinking
I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong
And I grew strong
I learned how to get along
So now you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here
Without the look upon your face
I should have changed my f-ing lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me

Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me
With somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my loving
For someone who's loving me

Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my live to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

[i will survive~~ cake~]

2009-12-14T03:16:00.002+08:00

"在路上

我

跌得心甘

伤得情愿

结果

我被绊倒了

是谁???

是我被我自己绊倒了

跌得很伤?

应该说

跌得不轻

好心人陆陆续续地出现

扶起我"

Quoting from one of my bro's friend. I find it writing what's in my mind. It mirrors out what happened to me!! When pple are sad, they will start blaming others for failing them. The fact is, you failed you self. You failed others.
You failed people who really cares and give a damn about you.
You fell down! people go and grab you and keeps telling you to take the other route.
You said u r not going to give up cuz u know there will be a treasure in front.
People told you that that isn't any treasure in front.
You replied , no there is, the road isn't seems too bad.
People advice you that that's the nature of the path.
You replied, go away, I don't need ur advice.
Leaving people behind, upset over what you are doing.

Persistence, is good sometimes. However it depends on what and when you persist on. Else, you will continue being an idiot who never learn how to love your self. Loving others, will not bring you more love. This is the real world. So stop living in your own fantasy world miss lee. Enough..

its been long!

2009-10-05T08:45:00.002+08:00

Ahh.. when is the last time i blog here.. -.= long time ago.
WARNING! this is not an emo post!!
Tonight i suddenly miss all important person for me again..
I thought i will be strong this time...
But knowing that I do not have a confirmation on whether i will be going back soon makes me feel insecure. I had never miss them so much like i do tonight.
Manage to hold back my super precious tears finally..~~

However, 20 minutes ago.. I get to find a stack of cards which some i bring frm msia and some i received when i'm in uk. Not to forget, together with a diary. A diary full with many words of encouragement for my self whenever i am sad.

Great=.= some smart ass read all the cards and started to feel ahhhh.. touched by the memoriess.. very very nice and precious memories. Then this smart ass stare at the diary=.= curious on what had she wrote for her self last time.. to be precise, from 2 years ago.

So, this smart ass finally went and tear of the super strong plaster on the surface of her heart and smack it on the wound by reading every page of it =.= boooh!! great... she feel the pain=.= finally.. the smart ass drop a few drop of super holy water and now the smart ass couldnt sleep.. wahhhhhhhh!! not emo she suddenly shouted.. is just SENTIMENTAL.. =.= she know.. she will be strong.. even though she is not. she will learn.. learn while she keeps falling and get all the dirt and hurts all over her body.

Be strong, my self. I will support u always.

pc lee

runaway..

2009-09-06T01:43:00.001+08:00

Many people choose to runaway when they faced problems.

Runaway might not be the best way to resolve problems.

But it is definitely a good pain killer and brain washing tool.

Uk is the best place for me to hide my self.

Without a concrete heart is the reason I keep coming back.

Coming back to be stab again and again.

Year after year..

I will be running away again.. 2 weeks , from now.

-end-

Stress and pain in heart

2009-08-12T23:30:00.001+08:00

Kinda stress since last week. Everything come together that makes me feel that is time the eldest child had to be really thoughtful and strong already. No more fooling around as a rebellious girl anymore.

Staring at the accounts and I feel is time to contribute something back to my family. The mess is really a mess. Missing statements, not tally figures and outdated ledgers. Mom is old. Beside the energy that she remains for her daily-must-do-activity (scolding), she has got less energy anymore.

Dad is the one making me feel the pain at most. His spinal has some cracks due to few times of falls over the past few years. He had endure the pain himself over the years, just to save the hassles asking the others to fetch us back from school. Of course, the money which he hates dealing with the insurance company. Few days ago the pain attack suddenly, causing him to have trouble even when he just wants to stand up. Brought him to the doctor today. He had been our support all these years. But when we wanted to take care of him now, he remains acting his best to show us that he is okay, and no worries about him.

He asked me to send him to the barber this evening. I agreed and asked him to give me 15 minutes for a shower. When I am done, he has gone to the barber him self. He didn’t want to trouble me. T.T

Besides, his memory is getting worst. One day, he may had fetch my brother home in the afternoon and still go to the school in the evening, thinking that my bro is not back yet.

All I want now, is that he will be as healthy as last time before I am back to UK. Being strong, is my most important factor for me at this moment. I can’t bear the consequences alone.

My dad is a good person. Guan ni ma bless him pls.

-pc-

FARK

2009-08-10T03:17:00.001+08:00

shoot!!!!! how many times does this gonna happen? every year????? shoot gao gao man! Enuf! I’m like not even a dog..

2009-07-24T03:43:00.001+08:00

back for almost 2 weeks alrd. Life’s good. ^^

going ikea tomorrow. kinda excited. in my mind ikea in msia is much bigger than the one in UK. Of coz, the one in UK is often lonely. Yea XD i went ikea alone for 3 times in UK. wakakaka.. no idea why i go ikea always although i know i hv nothing to buy at all. ^^ maybe the things inside makes me feel the warmth of a HOME. lol..

Anyway. Ikea, I am coming. Ikano as well.

nitez to the world.

2009-07-14T05:48:00.001+08:00

alright after a long time after the previous post.. what i wanna say is.. i am really.. lost. not an emo post arr… this is normal post.

did not sleep in the plane for the past ‘N’ hours and now, after a short sleep of 3 hours.. i am still awake… sickening.

woke up n cried suddenly.. swtening, for no reason summore. Just feel like weird. passing by certain place in my own room will suddenly makes me feel the previous ‘pain’?? really don’t understand what’s going on actually. zz dats y i say, i am lost.=.= hv you guys ever had these kind of feelings? i don’t really know how to describe it but is like, u feel unhappy n scared of you dont know what n sad, for no reason.=.= n cant find the reason as well.. sweat.

whats going on??!!

2009-06-21T14:46:00.001+08:00

I can’t shit, i got constipation these few days. It makes me feel I am a piece of shit. Don’t get near to shit then. Shit brings you ntg but shit.

2009-06-12T06:59:00.001+08:00

I don’t even dare too look back my previous posts. After recalling what happened previously, I seriously feel that I am actually useless, and bad person.

I actually move more than 100 post about a year ago, to another address. It happens that I visit it today and i feel that i’m sick. hoho.. watever. Like pple say, I never learn. Maybe I learn, but very slow.

Anyway, sorry to anyone if I ever say something harsh or did something meaningless.

Oh yea.. finish the exam ages ago. My routine –> wake, eat, bath, paperwork , paperwork, paperwork, eat, sleep, game, game, paperwork, sleep. swt=.-lll lolzz..

Everyone is leaving soon! Gonna miss them loads.

What a weird feel

2009-06-04T08:31:00.001+08:00

I am surrounded by many friends , making ba zang today. Laughed a lot. But I at the same time I am missing my besties a lot. Really lot. At moments I have this random thoughts to go back immediately. I really misses them so much. It’s been very long since I last sat together and laugh with them. Everyone has got their hectic life.

The feel of insecurity further attack my mind when I realise that another buddy of mine is going to Australia and I didn’t even manage to meet her before she go. I understands that life has got many people entering in every different phase. But at this phase, doubtless they are very important people for me besides my family, as I always agree with one quote I once read in a book. “ Family are those chosen by God, but Friends are family members that you choose.”

- sometimes, these feeling of missing your dearest people drags you down even you are enjoying your day with a day long laughter, how much I wish to be laughing together with them at this moment. I miss you guys. Post exam aren’t perfect, at all in UK. -

-pc lee-

God Bless Me

2009-05-30T10:46:00.001+08:00

suddenly i got sudden fever * , loss of appetide *, lao sai *, sneezing*.

* = few symptoms of swine flu=.=

>< no!! Ok.. i promise i will sleep properly, drink water, eat vitamin c and take care of my self.. T.T dun let me get that pls.. pls.. omitofo..

T.T

Random..

2009-05-29T08:29:00.001+08:00

忽然间有一个想法。。就是，把我的好朋友们的性格写在这里。。（无聊没事做的关系）

我的好朋友们很：

懂得迁就和包容我。

容易满足，常因为小小事情而非常快乐。

白痴。

安静。

会笑。

木头。

欠扁。

喜欢偷袭我。

有义气。

好。

傻傻的。

开心。

喜欢配合我的冷笑话。（令我安静的方法）

喜欢叫我用e-mail联络她。=.-lll

放我飞机。。

可爱。

老人家。

我的好朋友们，真的很好很好很好。

Shit happens

2009-05-28T10:19:00.001+08:00

ok people.. sorry sorry sorry everyone.. I don’t even know what’s going on. I will learn how to keep my mouth shut always to prevent unnecessary misunderstandings. ALWAYS SHUT.

6,782,536,522

2009-05-27T20:27:00.001+08:00

A figure? A number? A secret code , or a wonder?

I find it a wonder. That’s the latest world population updated on 27 of May 2009. Will you imagine how many people is there? And we are only one tiny little from there. What i am trying to say is, for people to have a chance to meet each other, is as low as 1 /6,782,536,521.

人与人之间相遇的机会低于1/ 6,782,536,521。对，这个几率还低过中萬子票。昨天，我在同一条路上，两次遇见同一个人。但是我们不认识，也不说话。很可惜吧，难得的机会儿度遇上同个人，但是却不认识。所以，想一想，我们身边的朋友们，还有家人，他们比萬子票还要难得。所以，要好好珍惜他们。

Trans: the chances of people meeting each other is as low as 1 /6,782,536,521. yes, is lower than striking a lotto. I met a guy twice yesterday on the same path. But I don’t know him. We didn’t talk. Wasted isn’t it? For such a chance to met someone , but we did not know each other. Therefore, think about it. The friends and family around us, they are actually more valuable than a lotto. Thus, they must be appreciated.

很开心能够遇见你们。谢谢。^^

-lpc-

我干！！！！！

2009-05-25T23:18:00.001+08:00

如果我有一把干炮抢，我一定不会自己去干你！！！！因为那会令我失身份！！但是，你放心，我一定会叫人把你搞得乱七八糟。。

这应该是我活到今天说过最毒的话！！但是我懒得鸟你！！操你妈的！！我干！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

Fuck you !!! BITCH!!!

Tough Decision

2009-05-24T11:23:00.001+08:00

In life we had to make decision always. After a long time struggling between my beloved room and a house with a person that I cannot trust at all, I’ve finally decided to move if they could not give me a best solution.

Hse 87 ain’t that bad afterall, if everyone is gone and those remaining is me n the guy who rarely cook, the kitchen will be fine. The toilet can be washed. The house can be maintain. The trade off is , either work hard to maintain the house in other place, or work harder to protect my self from uncertain threats.

Is a hard decision though. But I am not that kind till the extend where I allow my self to be a slave to a person that I personally know I am not willing to . Expecting me to cook or do her chore? Impossible. I hate. Really hate, from the bottom of my heart. Hey girl, if you are reading this, I just wish to tell you , the creepiest part is, I couldn’t believe the little tricks in between that you make to create these much of misunderstandings between me n the person you don’t like. And it seems like a perfect plan from the beginning. Don’t ask me why I choose to believe what others said. I am not believing anyone. You people can continue playing mental game with each other, but please, leave me alone. I am staying away from everyone. I would rather be a nerd rotten at home. Being alone is not that bad after all.

-pc , lee-

加油！加油！we can do it!

2009-05-20T12:42:00.001+08:00

笑紮博，你不要天天stress到不懂那一个国家去！晚上睡觉就睡觉，十次有一半的时间你都会忽然间杀出来说你还没“成功睡着”-。=ll 然后，成功睡着后也很成功的骗我=。= 7 am, 8am, 9am, 10am, 11am.

LoL, anyway, hang on there! We’re gonna graduate jor!! That square square de cap will be on our head soon~!!

So, everybody! Everyone who are taking exams now. Lets work it out~!! yo!! Good Luck~! ^^

-lpc-

小小感动- a Little touched.

2009-05-20T12:22:00.001+08:00

Sprain my left foot few days ago before going to Uni for exam.

It’s kinda funny actually. As I sprained my foot, I couldn’t walk to the uni, so I hv taken a bus. This is the first time I feel my self like a disabled person cuz it actually makes me takes a long time to go down from the bus. =.-ll. What makes me feel funny is that there are many people, might be thinking that I either break my bones or smtg. They are like so patient, following behind me even after I am off the bus! LoL. Well that’s a good thing. XD

Then, after exam, I eventually realise that my fridge is out of food. So, bringing the massive idiot pain together, I asked Sprina to accompany me to have my brunch at Nandos. (and the process start all over again, going into the bus so slowly, going down from the bus super slow.) After ‘landing’ from the bus safely, I walk at a speed of 0.5km/hour =.= usually, we took like 5 mins to walk from bus stop to Nandos. But that day, we took like.. approx 20 mins=.=

Back home- told CY about these and about the stuff that my fridge is like so pathetic.

2nd day- We had a group discussion on DBK. Suddenly, CY appear from no where and her 1st sentence already give me a shock.

CY: “ The veggie I alrd put it in the fridge.”

PC: “ " (shocked – walked out)

CY: “ and KFC up there ur room.”

PC: “ " (continue stunt)

CY: “ ok la.. you all cont discuss.. I go back 1st”

Byezzz..

After a while, MSN.

CY: “ oh, forget to tell you, the chicken is in the frozer.”

Me: “ (touched)

She actually did my groceries for me=.= scares+ shocked + lil touched. Thanks a lot!!! Tho you keep on saying that u just do it cuz u did ur groceries as well. But is still, I don’t know, maybe I’m too sentimental=.= but really, thanks a lot. ^^

Also! Thanks for the owner of this emoticon—> ah cow a.k.a steak to bring me the medicine despite the rain. >< Thanks thanks.

-pc lee-

友情是。。。。彩虹~！！ ^^

2009-05-14T12:45:00.002+08:00

I am suppose to be doing my OA revision. End up=.= reading comics introduced by yj last time. Then i saw this. quite interesting. ngiak ngiak ngiak.

Link : http://tini.motorlove.com.tw/

Friendship is like ..................

Comic : http://www.wretch.cc/blog/tutugo/20562047

Friends can be...................

In fact sometimes friends can be more understanding than anyone else. ^.^

Al-light, lim bieh wanna go sleep d=.= wasted a whole day playing that idiot tetris and comic-ing. T.T

Good Luck everybody~

Can’t wait to go back instead of doing these papers

2009-05-12T07:29:00.001+08:00

Lately there’re loads of shits happen to me. one of it would be the ‘bombastic’ result i got for my double credit assign. Very sad case. Many had said that the tutor had a bad impression to asians( they find out through student id as msians hv diff id with local peeps) they said so, cuz she gave a comment one the 1st sentence in my 1st page of review paper. she gave the following comment:

“Your grammar in poor till the extend where i cant understand what are you trying to say.”

1st sentence. imagine. Never in my life i did an assignment, i have these kind of comments before. Ironic. I thought of appealing. But think again, no point. sigh.

Studyin n studyin now. Hope to score in every paper i can. Tired. Why I am in such situation today. Where I am suppose to be attending culinary classes happily. Well, the only thing that I am pleased is few friends that i can overcome all these together. But the only thing is far away.. lol..

Nah, watever it will be, it will be over in 2 weeks time. Good luck to all of us!

-pc lee-

April - May

2009-05-03T08:49:00.001+08:00

Realise something. Every year this time, there will be many people started to have low spirit in good term. In short, emo. Wonder why though. Pass by many blogs and realise it.

A : I wanna be happy.

B: Just let me die.

C: Shit. I cry.

and it goes on.

Of course, I am not better either. Hahaahahaha..

But at least I did hahahahaha here. >.^ Life isn’t that bad after all. I see more flowers when i look away. ^^

-pc-

Loving me campaign.

2009-05-02T05:30:00.001+08:00

lol.. yeap. This is the 2nd time I tell my self ok i will sayang you (myself) more a bit bit.

I will try hard. Enough of self destruction actions.

Anyway, saw a nice back this morning while I am walking to Uni.

CY laugh at me cuz I’ve said the following statement.

“Nice to lean, nice to sleep, nice to cry on, nice to beat.”

I mean it. hahhhaah.. is true wert. Just the fact that I dunno whether he is a gay or a straight.

Cheers.

-pc-

Fastest way to prepare to work in the morning. ( 5 min) funny!

2009-04-28T11:20:00.001+08:00

This is just too hillarious. Thanks to CY.

Good one!!

2009-04-28T09:25:00.003+08:00

this is also funny..puuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Rainbow after the rain

2009-04-28T07:46:00.001+08:00

I saw a huge rainbow today. ^^

Really happy about it.

Somehow, every time i saw rainbow, my day is being cheered.

If this were coincidence, I would say thanks to the rainbow to appear every time I’m sad. ^^

Rainbow appears to add some meanings in the life which happens to be black and white.

I’m glad that today, I saw another rainbow.

-pclee-

have you ever…

2009-04-25T08:34:00.001+08:00

Have you ever feel bored till the extend where you started to search your own name through google search??

I tried it today. Facinating. Yet dumb. The most result i saw for pay chee, is the following:

1) Tadika pay chee

2) Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Cina, Pay Chee (Tampin)

3) Sekolah Menengah Pay Chee, (Melaka)

Im like=.=

What is that=.= sweat ahhhhhhhhhh…

Anyway.. I feel damn.. bored today.. /.\

Updates

2009-04-24T08:31:00.001+08:00

Went London last Sunday. Few funny and comparative pictures to share.

This shop sells Malaysian and Singapore food. But look at the name. The boss must be a lamer=.= (kiasu = takut kalah) We’re like.. sweat =.=lll

And then , lets compare the price with Malaysia.

If you will to convert it. One ice kacang cost you RM30. Whereas in Malaysia, RM1 you can still get back some change. =.=

Then, look at the otak otak=.= is actually 4 pounds 90 pence. To be precise, RM24 for 2 pieces of otak otak.. =.=

In Msia, its RM 0.40 (look below) for 1 piece. In Short, 10 pence for 2 pieces.

Continue – Saw the price for rambutan?? 22.5 pounds per kg. In msia, when you went pasar malam, you will hear people shouting, Mari mari, 3 ringgit se kilo 3 ringgit sekilo=.= and no one will go n buy it cuz is too expensive. Here, a kilo cost you RM120.=.=

And note : they wrote, class 1 rambutan, but look into the picture. These kind of rambutan will usually be thrown aside on the road=.=

Yes.. there are more shocking stuff here.. lol.. Im hungry.. i wanna go back.. =.=

Okay.. I admit I am emo today. Just today.

2009-04-22T05:37:00.001+08:00

Flash back the times we had together. Despite studying in diff college, I never feel the hassles travelling around from taking a cab when I have no car to driving to Monash, just for a lunch. Just to meet you both. Never a word of grumble. However, thinking back today, why I am the one travelling around? Did you guys just realize that you both never visit me in Taylors? When I am all alone in that freggin lonely place.

One year over. One in Aussie. One in PJ. Whenever you call from Aussie, besides telling me guys. What else you will tell me? Despite the fact that I misses you so much. For PJ, the 1st time I took a bus. A bus to a place where I don’t even know where is that. Skipping classes just to chase to give you a lovely birthday wishes and present. Sorry for me to have such a ‘surprise’ when you are having lunch with your boy and friends. I waited for 3 hours. And I saw you for 3 minutes.

I did not request for any returns, as long as you guys are happy. That’s my main concern. Then why grumble here today? After so long?? Cuz I realize, no matter how much I misses you guys here. A lot. Everyday. Regret that I could not celebrate your birthday this year that you said your birthday is so different this year. But the problem is… I never hear from you since i came UK, besides the times when I smsed you. Not even a notice whether you have received my card. Leaving me here, telling my self there must be some problem with the post man. But hearing from someone else that you have received the card. And I didn’t even know you are going to continue your studies in Aus.

I am grumbling here today. Cuz I misses you both. But never say it out. The next time we 4 can meet , is N years later. I am tired to take the initiative to keep the conversation on. Did you guys realize.. how long we did not have a proper pillow talk?

Perhaps I demand too much. Just some words of my own. Nothing much.

Tears means nothing......Smile either

2009-04-21T07:29:00.003+08:00

I will try my best to be a good friend. Not making anyone angry. Sorry for my shallow words.

Dear diary( or shud I name it blogy) I am tired. Why the word constant exist when it hardly happen..........................................

人字容易，做人难。

说话的技巧。。。也很难。。

Upside down, Inside out

2009-04-18T13:12:00.000+08:00

It’s 6.30am at UK now, and I’m awake, blogging.

Recently, most of the things are not on the right track.

I am out of motivation in doing anything. Not even talking.

Reasons: Unknown. Probably i misses those in the other side of the earth a lot lately. I really do.

Anyway, same old words, life goes on. Despite the fact that I am not happy with many things. Not happy with wallet being stole, not happy with people showing off, not happy with people’s irony and humiliations, not happy with my housemates, not happy with this and that, but who cares right? There are worse times. =) cheers.

What talking me? I don’t know. Lol. Okay, forget about sad case. Lets see, happy things? Erm, I still get to talk to those in the other side, I can still grumble a little to my buddies, I can still watch the sun rise, I received a brand new wallet from friends in Bristol ( Special thanks to people from 660 and the neighbour opposite 660), I received a monkey toy from 660 middle room, I received a brand new watch and toys from Msia ^^ , and so on.

So, it balance up i guess. But i really wanted to hang out with my own ‘informal group’. Being a parasite in other people’s group isn’t fun. Every night I misses my cousin and my besties so much. Hoping that we can study and fooling around together. (“,) anyway.. I believe morally we are doing it. supporting each other. ^^

Si lang hoor has been complaining bout his account studies bla bla bla now. U can do it bro. ^^

Being able to chat with u guys every day really cheers me up. Thanks. =)

-lpc-

This entry is an unknown

2009-04-15T08:13:00.001+08:00

I blog to express my feelings.

I blog because I feel that I wanna blog.

I blog whenever I feel sad.

But sad is not emo.

I blog because I am pissed!!!!!

Faker Faker Fakersssssssss around!!!!!

yucksss.. puik.. curse u.. puik puik puik…

77 many seventy seven..

Where are all my lucksss????????? grrrrhhhhh…

Wanna cry d larhhhh! sienzzz fuck…

to all the xiu yan.. these are for u.. hekkkkk

“打你个小人头，等你成事冇出头”；“打你个小人手，到你有钱唔识收”；“打你个小人肚，等你日日俾人告，厄运行到老”；打你个小人喉，等你呼吸唔畅顺，肺痨兼中风”

omitofo.. god bless u.. .\,/.

Where is all my luck? sighhhh

2009-04-08T07:10:00.001+08:00

Supposingly, after finishing all my assignments, I should be happy.

Throwing a party in my house should not be a chaos for me. But what happen is, among us, there is this some bitch who stole my wallet and my coins.

As a friends, should it be this way? Don't she feel ashamed ? I now feel damn difficult to face her. In fact, don't even wanna see her face. This side, she is borrowing money everywhere, or maybe, even stole my money, and there, she is buying branded stuff. Two big bad it seems. At this moment I just feel like cursing her.

Money is one thing. Memories is another thing. My wallet is a gift I gave my self to encourage my self from living alone in this strange place. Inside the wallet there are many sticker pics that I love the most. There is a picture of me and my besties. There are few prayer things that I need to accompany me every night . There is my student id. There are loads of memories. But just because of money, you rip everything from me. Not even leaving my coins alone.

You say you are sad that I did that to you. Well I did checked everyone. You say friends need trust. You make me bitten by guilt at that moment. But do you feel the shame in you??? Is this what you parents teach you? To be a thief? You used to asked me to give you a pair of keys of my room. I am glad that I did not do so.

Now, I am asking my self, should I move out from this house since you are coming in next year. At the same time, I am asking my self, why must I do so? I am not the one who did the wrong thing. From the bottom of my heart, at this moment, I really hate you like how I hate pei wen. This is my space, a place for me to shout out my feelings. No point from lying to you. YES, I SUSPECT YOU. or perhaps, with all the current evidences I have, I AM SURE YOU ARE THE ONE!!!

If you are reading this, do you remember you asked me just let you know if I need help. YES. PLEASE RETURN MY WALLET AND MONEY TO ME!!!!!!!!!! YOU BITCH. Or maybe, you can take that fucking money, just give me back my wallet full with memories! I do not care who you wanna complain your "sadness" to , you wanna ask you super rich dad to kill me or you dear boy friend to do whatever, I DONT GIVE A DAMN. This is the first time I feel I am so unlucky to have a friend.

Is not about money you know, is about how you treat your friend. Is about how you lie to your friends. Is about how you betray me. I really don't feel like seeing you anymore. I do not have any evidence. Therefore I can't confront these to you face to face. You win. Are you happy with your branded stuffs? If you are, congrats. As you are no longer been qualified as a human. U are insane and worse than a beast. When you start spending with other people's money, think of how hard people's parents earn the money. Unlike construction, they rip money from bribery and innocent poor peeps who pay for the taxes and expecting a good quality buildings, not tofu buildings who ripped of thousands of life when there are disasters. We have hard earn money, not easy money. Use your brain if you have one.

DISSAPOINTED. and I really hate being alone. I wanna go home. /.\

无聊透顶

2009-03-29T09:01:00.001+08:00

在英国前三个月，非常开心。。因为大家都不了解对方。。
没有什么禁忌，也不会因为小事发脾气。。
日子旧了。。接触多了。。自然而然会发现彼此的缺点。。
真正的朋友，就会慢慢的包容你。。这样的朋友。。就会变成好朋友。。。但是人都会有一些底线。。一些人，她们所做的事很难理解。。慢慢的，就会变成A和B 心里的一根刺。

三个月后我回家一个月。。这段时间。。我真的不上不下。。
回到去。。搭不上话题。。也没什么自由。。开心到有限。。最开心的，也只有刚
到的那几天。。

又在回到英国的时候。。又在完全搭不上话题。。真的是完完全全听不懂。。也不会有人会解释那到底是什么一回事。。感觉很瞎。。很蠢。。然后。。慢慢的。。我完全没有想要和一群人在一起的感觉。。因为。。会觉得。。有意思吗。。最难顶的是，不知是我多心了，我的问题，还是本来就这样。。总会觉得，当我和一些人比较多话，比较投机的时候，一定会有人不开心。。好像怕他的好朋友会被抢走似的。。事后还要讲一些莫明其妙，话里还有话的东西。。让我觉得。。和人相处也要担心这样多。。我宁愿谁都不讲。。呆在家里算了。就这样。。我被人说我自闭，EMO，我都懒得理。。毕竟。。我出去也要顾忌，没意思。。反正我知道我的好朋友是谁，谁了解我，谁不了解我就行了。。现在。。每次要出去时。。都必须是我超开心的一天。。因为至少那天我有力气去装傻。。扮白痴。。放心。。我没那么缺德，去霸人家的好朋友，少给我来那套。。

英国日子PART TWO ---> 大便般的生活。就当是我 - 李珮琪的个人问题，不必争论。因为这篇POST只是让我发泄而已。。毕竟这是我的地盘，谁要对号入座，谁要开始编别的故事。。慢慢来。。我没时间鸟.

END

A Lame Lame story copied from my bro's blog -_=ll (a real sweat one)

2009-03-28T23:00:00.001+08:00

这是一个超悲惨的爱情故事...

这个悲惨的爱情故事呢是废中又带来一点冷的...
故事是这样子的...
红豆和绿豆是个非常登对的情侣...
它们再一起的时间已有两三年了...
它们在这两三年中，每一天都过这快快乐乐的日子...
可是，有一天花心的红豆看见一粒比绿豆漂亮的豆...
结果，红豆就迷上了那粒漂亮的豆了...
结果呢，红豆便和绿豆分手了...
选择和那粒漂亮的豆再一起...
绿豆感到非常伤心，哭足了三天三夜...
哭了三天三夜的绿豆在第四天终于不哭了......
因为.....它...发芽了....
~结束~

Blog in Coma

2009-03-27T02:38:00.001+08:00

Yes yes, the blog has long been leave aside=.= this is due to the post dissertation syndrome. After writing so many words and you just don't feel like writing any. XD

Anyway, after handling in that dissertation, I've been sleeping and eating and laughing and enjoying. Then, after this, I'm gonna start on the next assign due =.= sighh..

Anyway.. besides sleeping eating laughing enjoying, I have addicted to something more horrible. Online SHOPPING=.= despite the fact that I've been staying at home so that I can "save" money, but the cruel fact is that I've been haunt by some 3rd party call, e-bay=.=

I've been buying loooooooadssss of stuff=.= from small stuff like mp3 till big things like wallet and then it goes to weird stuff like personal security alarms and army use glow ring=.-

oh yea.. I got my self an i pod shuffle generation 3. ^^ and received a parcel from a nanny. Love the feeling of receiving letters of parcels. But not bills -.=ll

Anyway, there will soon, be more parcels coming to my house =.- bet my housemates will get a shock. ngiak ngiakssss

Everyone in Msia, take care and miss you guys loads. ^^ Everyone in UK, experiment shows that staying at home being an anti-social person is very good. Can avoid many unnecessary event. XD

-lpc-

2009-03-12T12:14:00.001+08:00

T.T these assignments are driving me crazy...=.= ll [britney's you drive me crazy is running me my head -_-ll]

I wanna enjoy the lazy cosy days T.T can I? rhetoric -nya... ==

helpless=.= fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.......

New Start

2009-03-08T16:38:00.001+08:00

Hopefully my days will be like my new template.

Wish that I will have my own style.

不想再被人牵着鼻子走。。。

Sent a postcard to my self again. Telling my self not to be sad anymore.

I am really tired of compromising.

Must learn how to see things that I wanted to see, and filter off things I saw that I don't wish to see.

Life will then be better off.

Life goes on. Cheers to my self.

-lpc-

The Chicken Rice Shop~ prorrrpp proopp prorrrp prroop~

2009-03-05T13:15:00.001+08:00

Got the idea from sk these few days.. ngiahjahaha.. cuz her pm is like.. who want nasi lemak this saturday??? (13 pack) <-- and the number keeps increasing.

Is a guy selling nasi lemak with 2 pounds here. I guess he's been earning a lot=.=

Besides, motivation from this cute guy in facebook =.-""

Kumaravel M Ganesan at 7:07am March 5

Think that you are going to be a CEO of a large corporation in future...

Chicken rice shop CEO can? =__________O""""

sweatt!! Hopefully this works.. >< amithaba...

-lpc-

2009-03-01T15:02:00.001+08:00

我还可以跟谁讲。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

2nd night in library..

2009-03-01T13:06:00.001+08:00

Is a very boring night today... no body here..

How many sleepless night do I need to face this month...

Huhhh... hate being alone. At times.............

Library.. my new friend....

-lpc-

When u overnight in the library..

2009-02-27T10:14:00.001+08:00

When u overnight in the library.. you will eventually saw many weird n funny things happen... as if it was all arranged to entertain you so that you will not fall asleep...

First.. we saw many handsome.. hohohohoho.. this is not the main point.

Then.. when we thought no one will come in anymore as it was alrd late night.. here comes a group of black guys, as if they wanted to whack u up or smtg..

Of coz, usually , in this kind of gang, there will definitely be a nerd in there. we saw the nerd with.. super oily hair,estimated he had not taken his shower for 1 month=.= and sk even asked me whether i need some oil for cooking=.= wt....

2am in the morning and this is what happen that makes me decided to start blogging.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah...

that black macho wannabe guy.. starts walking around.. and then.. when we look at him.. he looked around as if there were winds and he is so handsome, shooting an advertisement for sunsilk and then "BANG"! he knock on the shelf!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH he quickly look back to see whether anyone saw that embarrassing moment.. but.. sorry.. ALL OF US 8 eyes, were looking at him. XDDDDD

sk n me hold our self back from laughing as we dont know him.. but the moment his friend start laughing loudly, we can't stop laughing!!! and sk even laugh till her tears drop=.= what the.. bad gal...

ok la.. back to assign.. sighhh...

-lpc-

2009-02-26T21:01:00.001+08:00

can i overcome all these?

can i continue my masters?

can i go back asap?

can i handle what i should handle now?

=.= can i stop can i here and get my ass to work on that assignment?

-lpc-

I just wanna say I MISS YOU 7 lil peebol @@

2009-02-24T06:34:00.002+08:00

Peebol who know me well know that I hardly say I miss you to other peebol...

was resting the whole day [due to a trip] . This weird feelings suddenly come over.

I miss you guys so so so so so much!

I don't know how much is that but i just feel like shouting out to you peebol...

7 lil peebol ... you know who u are?

Assless hoor ,boobie ying and MD za bo...I miss you guys the most.. T.T

then i miss banana, mighty wall, fire chicken king and my idiot 2nd sis....

sigh... I miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you, i miss you , i miss you and i miss you...

7 i miss you.. sighh... how good if u guys are around me...

I wish i could celebrate assless hoor's bday.. he claim that no body wants to celebrate for him...

I curse those peebol who takes him for granted. Think with ur ass when he squeeze him brain doing things for you guys..cihhh ciiip ahh...

assless hoor.. ^^ u are getting old d.. ahazz

-lpc-

2009-02-23T05:49:00.001+08:00

回到来不知不觉已经有3个星期了。。。
一切。。都不一样了。。
不能接受变化。。也只好把自己封锁起来。。
与世隔绝。。。免得犯贱的让自己一直被伤害。。
虽然说逃避是白痴的。。
但至少逃避时，时间可以让人慢慢忘掉一些事情。。
所庆幸的是。。我知道在10458KM 的地方。。一直有几位我可以相信的人。。。
想到这里。。也感到满足了吧。。
不要想了。。加油吧。。不开心。。日子还是要过下去。。！！
加油!!

If I die, I die of assignmentss

2009-02-16T18:32:00.002+08:00

Doing out a schedule and I found this---> Due Dates

26 Feb - Strategic Management

12 Mar - Managing Change

18 Mar - DBK [ literature review paper @6k words w-out reflective]

30 Mar- DBK Learning Journal

2 Apr - Organisation analysis assign + learning journal.

the gap between one to one assignment is --> 3 to 12 days

best part is the weightage for these assigns is from 50 - 60% of whole coursework. great=.=yay~~~~!! =.=

can I overcome this. I hope I can... GOSHHHH!!

2009-02-12T06:20:00.001+08:00

I suddenly realise that outside is really scary. Politics are everywhere. My room is my comfort zone now. I feel secure in my room. Very secure. But the minutes I'm out, I'm afraid that my words will hurt people. Same time, I'm afraid of being hurt. Memories on year 2008 isn't that good. Pain is still there when I tries to flashback. Can people just give a little bit of mercy, at least, do not stab so hard into the heart. It's already full with scar. I ain't emo now. Really. =) cuz i get to know that there are still few person that I can totally trust and they've tried their best to pamper me. Thanks. I do not need more new peeps that I don't understand at all and might hurt me anymore. Do not need at all. Especially when the truth behind is all ugly stuff like Joanna song :" I am paranoid of these kind of things, that you are using me" lol... good sentence though.

Me and ms za bo lately realise that we shall actually protect ourself. cuz people out there are really too unpredictable. ngiakss

10.17pm and while I was browsing some picture in secondary. Gosh=.= I should not have miss this person=.= and I should seriously start dieting=.= gosh... start start start!! cut cut cut! =.= ugly till dunno which country.. =.= hate

-lpc-

UK

2009-02-10T00:38:00.001+08:00

Reach UK again at last.. after 16 hours flight , 2 hours transit waiting hours, 1 hour waiting for coach, 2 hours coach, and finally 30 minutes taxi..=.=

During these hours, I've done all these:

1) Watched Dexter, Powerpuff girls, Samurai Jack, National Geog, Monster Inc, High School musical, 27 dresses, and open season 2.

2)Sleep for 5 hours in fligh

3) Stare at the disgusting food

4) Go into the lavatory and start plucking my white hairs (this is the most insane stuff i think)

5) Stare at the quite handsome air waiter (dunno what is it call) for very very very long=.=

6) Star at the stars out there.

7) Looking at the sign on the emergency exit , afraid that anything happen=.=

8) Massage my ass ..lol..

and then at last i reach=.=

my room is in a super mess! and i've cleaned it...

I miss evthing n ev body in Msia! ><

-lpc-

R.I.P TO AH POH POH

2009-02-04T03:49:00.001+08:00

Suddenly, many images flashed back in my mind. pictures where she asked me n hoor, whether we want coffee, crackers, asking us to have our meal 10 times a day, afraid that we are hungry.

Happy when she saw us, and body that been tortured by the cruel cancer cells. they took her. They took her away from us when Im in Taiwan, no body told me as they wouldn't want us to be sad over there.

Went over to her place just now. Her daughter are trash. Pure trash...

I am not allowed to go for the burning ceremony. Hatred slowly grow in my heart, though I know it is not a correct action. I can't control that feeling. The feelings on a person who is so self centred and act like a perfect faker. This situation will then put me into a dilemma.

I am back, for my friends, I leave again, because I hate facing this kind of atmosphere.

-Running out from this depress feelings-

** just few hours is more than enough.

2009-02-01T23:01:00.001+08:00

I am happy that I am back from Taiwan..but yet, I realise that I have to face something more cruel .. One more week and I am gonna go back to the place where I hardly see my dearest friends and family.. goshhh...but no worries i guess.. cuz.. with MAXIS~~ bla bla bla=.= commercial time.. hahahahahah...

Knew few new friends from Taiwan.. good one...

Bought loads n loads of things...

toys, jackets, hoodies, bags, sneakers, souvenirs.. etc.. etc..=.=

Have to start packing .. again=.= I HATE packing=.= ishhhh... luckily, I've got... the magic word**.... ^^

** KAKAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK~~~

-lpc-

2009-01-22T23:25:00.001+08:00

I am happy today.. ^^ A satisfying day indeed...It's been long time since the last time I go out with few buddies and watch a movie.. walk around.. buy things and had dinner without any worries in mind.. ^^ Love it...

Thanks for accompanying me.. ^^

-lpc-

2009-01-14T21:41:00.001+08:00

Dunno why.. just love this song so much...Feel that the lyrics is so easy going.. DIff story everyday.. Diff pple in your life~~

作词：非非作曲：非非
老歌和相片里的昨天
唇膏和镜子里的今天
鲜花将凋谢的明天
曾经期待的每一天
轻快和放纵的晴天
沉默和徘徊的阴天
躲藏和静止的雨天
已经遗忘的每一天
喔每天每天
哪天值得纪念
哪个人不能挽回
哪天曾经许愿
哪个人只能
梦里再相见
有些人留下
有些人离开
所有人都变老的每天
有些事还在上演
有些成为永远
摸索未来的每天
有些人流浪
有些人承担
所有人都孤单的每天
有些错不明白
有些爱不重来
不想反悔的每天Oh~每天 Oh~每天

-范玮琪-

[每天的每天]

2009-01-10T00:21:00.001+08:00

At last my father brought me to my beloved Osaka today ^^

So happy to see Uncle Ben.. ^^ maaahhahahaha... and he pakat with me by keeping secret for me from my mom. A secret that I always tapao black dragon ^^ mahahahahahha... He is kind enough to make my fav unagi onigiri ^^ and personally made a superb sushi to us. mahahhahaah...

<-- from Uncle Ben.. XD

Satisfied satisfied..

Also, i love kids* [* kids when they are not crying]

one good thing about kids, dun hv such thing as girl cant touch guys or smtg.. ^^ so cute ..

Lastly, i love theseeeeeee but is not mine.. T.T the only advantage of getting married=.=

-lpc-

Malaysia.... maaaaaahhahahahah

2008-12-29T10:56:00.002+08:00

The minute i reach Malaysia.. i feel the "warmth"!!!! LOL.... so so so happy... aihssss...
I am happy!!! had not been so happy since long ago.. hahahhaha....

No body knows exactly when is my arival date. yin jiet thought she is the only one who know i am coming back on "30 December" innitially. LOL... however she didn't know that I lied to her too~~! I secretly take a cab back to subang jaya. When i reach her house, she's is not in. I stunt a while.. cuz is not my original plan at 1st. My originial plan was to knock her door.. hahahahaha... anyway... when she's back and I stood in front of her gate.. she feels like chopping me off into 12. hahah..

Weather shock as well. from 3 celcius usually, now shoot up to 31 celcius.. hahaha. i start sweating the minute i reach the airport. Although i don't really like malays, the minute i saw them, i feel alive too ... lol...

after bathing, my eyes feels like few tonnes heavy..yj brought me to K3 to hv my dinner. Even a simple fry kuey teow, I was so .... (the feeling is hard to decribe with words) in short. I love it..

Gonna see mei lyn today.. ^^

-lpc-

Emo nemo once a while

2008-12-26T09:08:00.001+08:00

There're many things that you will never expect that it will happen to you always. I never expect all these to happen.

you will never expect that suddenly, a person can be so important for you. Without realising it till everything happens.. when the sadness strikes. sighhh.... i hate the feeling of missing people... and more. /.\

-pc-

lonely lonely xmas

2008-12-25T09:48:00.002+08:00

merry christmas, everyone..

well.. xmas this year.. kinda.. lonely=.=

xmas in uk... suprisingly... is totally different from what i have always thought.

No countdown, no party, only one thing they'll do, rush to hypermarkets, buy anything they could get. As on the xmas day, everything is closed. no public transport... at all. shops are all closed.

suddenly, i don't feel like going back Malaysia anymore. Everything.. is fake. sickening.

-pc-

2008-12-15T20:23:00.001+08:00

Every time when there's big age, every year around this time, there'll definitely be someone that I care , had a serious illness and predicted not gonna live long and leave before new year.. I don't want that to happen..., T.T... anymore... it alrd happened 2 times!!! I don't want it to be the 4rd this time. T.T helpless...

Sis said she asked about when I am going to visit her every time my sis went for a visit. I miss her too... her son and daughter!!!! no one is taking care of her! only her granddaughter! the one and only grand daughter! Hating her son n daughter.... they didnt even want to pay for her medical bills!

I wanna go back....

2008-12-14T12:16:00.001+08:00

I was reading back my old friendster testimonials and at pg 4, i saw xmas testi lol... time flies... xmas is coming again.

This will only be a short post.. as i just wanna say...

friends who accompany over the last christmas.... I love you guys so damn much. ^^ appreciate u guys.

All i want for xmas is that you'll all be happy forever. ^^

-jingle bells.-

2008-12-12T07:51:00.002+08:00

这一次。。她们全部真的把我逼到一个角落。。
我真的真的发火了！！！！
他那几个虚伪到半命的人。。真的。。GRRAAAHHHHHHHH！！

平时没事就有得踩就踩，一到ASSIGNMENT DUE DATE，一个两个统统把我捧上天！他妈的以为我白痴啊！！！！最讨厌看到她们问我， ARE U FREE? ARE U THERE? 下一句一定没什么好东西。。无事不登三宝殿！！一来就没有好事。。^！%#^(！%#%！^#！%@(%#(！&@^#&！
我要回去我要回去！！ T，T 老娘的样子看起来很好骗咩?！！
别人这样，来到这里， ANG MOR 也是这样！GROUP PRESENTATION ， KONONNYA！！太极功厉害到。。。 /，\ 累。。。
最不能顶的就是一个以为自己有完整个岛，好像我欠她酱！！

I can only help u if u can help ur self bitch!! Don't keep telling me i don't know, i don't know, i don't understand!!!! GOOGLE IT!!! you are no body for me!!, even you tell me million times i don't know, I AM NOT GOING TO DO IT FOR YOU!!!! Who the hell doesn't know that you are expecting me, the fool in ur eyes to finish the whole thing for u.. bakaaaaaaaaa!!!! I'll never forget how the hell u shoot me last tuesday and how ur bitchy face come n ask for "help" this tuesday.. fucking annoying man..

I AM MADDDDDD!! I DUNNO WHO TO TALK TO BLARHHHHH!

"JUST TELL THEM U CANNOT HELP LA"

"JUST TELL THEM YOU DONT KNOW"

the problem is, I've alrd tell a million times to them, ever since foundation, NO BODY is listening to me! Even i say NO, people will tot that I'm joking! What the HECK!!

-just a post for me to relief my stress- /.\

*assign due dates are the best time where you can see who r those true friends, and who are those TRASH who hurt you as if you r NOTHING.

今日主角-->EMO

2008-12-09T07:01:00.001+08:00

原来一杯米，可以煮出那么多粥-[无奈]，

原来。。。。。。天可以那么的黑。。

今天的天。。。这么黑。。

今天的我。。。很讨厌人家说我EMO。。。人家又不是NEMO。。。哪里会EMO。。

讲话又吵，不讲话又和EMO扯上没必要的关系。。。-[超无奈]

不讲话一秒钟。。就会听到这句熟悉的问题：“PC 你EMO 阿。。不要EMO啦~~~~~”-[超级无奈]

看这朋友们一个个为了论文愁眉苦脸，我又帮不上忙-[超级无敌无奈]

想必我不讲话，不要MAO DIAN DIAN 讲冷话，就帮上很大的忙了吧。。当然。。又会扯上EMO。。-[买GOD]

老娘不EMO。。欧开~CIU~~

-lpc-

2008-12-08T02:48:00.001+08:00

The Bottom Line

Go solo today -- you can get a lot done, and you'll have a fun doing it by yourself.

In Detail

You are not feeling totally in synch with your friends right now, which could cause some social awkwardness. One person in particular is causing some tension and you just don't have the patience for it. Dealing with all of the insecurities of someone who is always fishing for compliments isn't fun: It's tiring. So take a vacation from this person and try spending time alone for a while. You can get a lot done, and you'll have more fun doing it by yourself.

CHUN!!! Isn't it what im doing now??!! lol.. cool man.. lol..

-lpc-

A day, out to field

2008-12-07T09:43:00.001+08:00

Woke up at 3pm today... look out to the window and yeap! is a sunny day. But not on my side. Decided to go out to have a walk.

Sun sets here is early. 4pm.

Big big field , a nice place to leave all the matters behind your mind.

It's a beautiful day today.

As usual, I love swing.

-lpc-

Random Picss

2008-11-30T11:13:00.001+08:00

Was checking on my hard disk and I found these random old pics. hahaha.. memories anyway.. happy and funny memories... lol...

random-ness in class..

Siao eye on msia..

Our fav place always- after class random-ness

hahahahah.. like these pics so much

I am seriously tired.

2008-11-30T01:11:00.001+08:00

Tired mentally and physically lately. I seriously need to settle down this so called UK life already. No more slacking around.

Besides, I feel bad for bothering people around me always too. Am I relying on them? or the other way round? No matter how it goes, I think everyone needs their own time and space. Let December be an anti social month. Let it be an economic month. Let it be a peaceful month. =)

I slowly feel I am getting far from Malaysia. Everything seems like changing in a pace where I could not catch up at all.

Anyhow, life goes on. I am trying my very very best to move on despite all the question marks in my mind and puzzles in my heart that actually giving some feel of a pinch on your skin.

Finish cleaning my room. Hoping to clean the room in me too. I still miss you guys though. Take care always.

An Unlucky day

2008-11-25T09:18:00.001+08:00

Unlucky things I encounter today.

1) Early in the morning, I woke up and decided to go to farmsfood to get some prawn. However, when I reach there. I totally forgotten that I am there to get the prawns. Instead, I bought a lot of eggs=.=

2) I decided to go Sainsbury in the afternoon to get some rice. Instead of that, I went to pet shop. =.=

3) While I was cooking, I fry my fingers. Somehow I was thinkin on some matter and didn't realise that my finger, is in the oil till i feel the pain =.=

4) When Im peeling the foil, I poke my finger on the sharp saw to cut the foil.

5) Received some idiot's msg that again, worsen my mood.

6) My internet connection was being cut off suddenly and my night goes off like that.

7) I realise I didnt bring any medicine for burnt. and those fingers are swollen now=.=

Had enough.. is that all? can it stop here?

sighhh.. well i'll still smile.. happy go lucky.. how true was it.. see what happens tmr then. sigh..

Song, oh song

2008-11-21T13:19:00.001+08:00

It's 5am in the morning in Bristol now. What I can say is just another sleepless night. It's a day, a day with grey sky. After dinner, I went to Juin's house to get some notes. I ate a lot today. A lot. From the things I ate. I clearly knew that I'm totally not in a mood. But I feel nothing. Not emo as well. Just need some talk with somebody. Anybody. Eventually, I knew what I must do at that moment, is to have a walk. We're bored. We decided to go to Sainsbury to have a walk. F.Y.I, Sainsbury is the only place that operates until 10pm here. After buying some groceries, my mood is not back yet. I asked them to bring me to have a walk in uni. My resistance had stopped me from discovering the uni ever since I reached UK. Besides my class, I never know where is the library, the toilets, the cafeterias, the computer labs and so on. I found my place, a place that I can hide my self from others when I need to be alone. I found the library. The stools outside the bar. A nice place indeed. Have some talk with both of them. Talked about everything. I slowly feel the dark side of mine. I am complaining about a friend who used to be one of my close friend. Is this back stabbing? Is it called back stabbing when everyone else felt the same way too? I don't know. Just feel that I am a hypocrite. I need to take note on this. Bad habit I guess. Well, my mom will tell me this is nature of human. But I always believe that when you start treating people around you with your true heart, they'll do the same too.

You might be laughing there, thinking it's so impossible to have people giving their true heart , doing everything and saying everything based on their sincerity. Everyone had their own way to define it. While I always believe that people will appreciate it. No matter how many times I fall. This is me. People will call this stubborn. Or some might say it's stupid. Try it. U will know what I mean.

However, I really hates her. I hope that she will stop bothering a white piece of paper. Somehow I just wish that I can buy her hundred bottles of clorox, turning her into white instead of the geli pink.. puik. =.=

Suddenly, I feel like listening to the song by Eagles, Love will keep us alive,introduced by yj, but I realised that I don't have it in this computer. Downloaded it, and listened to it "N" times. Calm.

Guess it's just a lil hormone imbalance in me. Hopefully it will be alrite when the sun arise again. I also believe in.. LIFE GOES ON~~~~~ hahahahha... if I have the chance to be happy, why not.

-ngiaksssssss-

Lazy bug re-appear

2008-11-17T06:44:00.001+08:00

Ok I am sorry for not updating this blog. I admit that I'm darn lazy over this holiday. Okay, here goes some random pics and pics for my Birmingham trip.

Are you a PC? yes~!! I am definitely pc~!! Forever pc and pc forever. Never change. I am still me although I'm here.

^^ Hope you both like it... wish to celebrate xmas with you guys so so much.. sigh... /.\ is okay... we can defer it.. ^^

Latest me... FAT!! >< i dun want... T.T

Church in Birmingham. I like the structure. nice...

Bull ring- the biggest shopping centre in Europe.. Somehow i just don't understand, why it is called bull ring, but with a structure of a whale=.=

The place I got you both most things, changing with my own misery.. lol... ahahahah

Krispy Kream~! but I still miss J Co the most... superb J co...

The backpackers hostel i stayed in. Colourful, isn't it? The room has got more than 4 colours on it's wall=.= superb.

Another happiness in Birmingham is that I got to eat the original Malaysia food!! this, prawn noodle.

Curry Laksa. Even taste better than curry laksa in Msia.

Kangkung balacan.

Fish head mee hoon.. ^^

Do Msia hv this xmas tree design for ferero? if not, I'll buy for you guys.

Me- playing around with the omg hat... =.=

Peep!!!! I really miss you guys.. a lot..is okay.. I'm gonna be back.. soon.. ^^

-cheers-

what I got from Birmingham for u guys.

2008-11-12T06:27:00.002+08:00

Just reached home from backpacking to Birmingham.. huh.. tired... but can't wait to show u guys what I got for u guys from there.

Nothing special over there actually, but, I knew u guys will love this place. Cadbury world. The world largest cadbury shop is there=.= M too tired to blog on my trip today, so just roughly show u guys, things i bring back with nine cow two tiger's energy... @,@

this one I made from chocs, as in, write it with choc.

and me my self

and theseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... are chocs...horrible terrible chocs..=.= that cashier got a shock n he tot I am a chocoholic. He even get a big big shock when i say i hate chocs actually... lol...

should I say, part of the choc? only from cadbury world. Other choc that I've collected so far, are not in here, yet..=.=

ok la dude.. Im really sleepy.. lol.. sleep sin... ngiak ngiak... tmr will update more pics and updates bout my trip this time.

p/s: I sacrifice my self for u guys u know.. T.T.. that choc smell in that factory is terrible horrible n vegiiiieee table..=.= for me...

-ok..K.O-

2008-11-10T09:21:00.004+08:00

Going to Birmingham later for 2 days one night...
Looking forward for it.. lol...
Will share the trip when im back.. lol
of coz.. with souvenirs i never forget.. mahahahahah.... oh.. show u guys some funny things by Jocelyne=.= someone's mandarin is worst than me.. XD ahahahhaha

air port... lol.. aaaahahahahah.. look at the "chang"

n mei lyn, look at how she write ur name!!! lol... wu2 mei2 ci3..lol....lol.. the red one is i correct one.. lol...

can't stop laughin.. ahahahhahahahaha......

oh yea.. and i've watch the new 007- quantum of solace. pls pple..=.= DO NOT WATCH IT.. it's so boring.. got no climax at all.=.=.. wasted my money.. sigh...

ok la guys.... catch up soon.. .take care~!

-birmingham-

2008-11-08T11:30:00.002+08:00

Somebody.. is kinda hypocrite... acting to be good, but actually is playing some lil trick behind me. Sickening.. i don't give a damn. Just do whatever you want and die off... get lost and don't bother my life anymore. Give me a peace of mind pls . =.= lap sap..

My life still goes on.

Slowly get used to life in UK=.= but my heart is still in msia. Bahaha.. Always in msia.. ngiaks...
Start to sleep very late at night.. now is alrd 3.30 and yet I'm still doin my stuff. Going Birmingham on Monday.. hope everything's alright.

i dont go lunch with pple here... i barely see anyone in uni=.= only dinner.. sometimes.. unlike the life in taylors, lunch time is the time i always hoping for... as everyone will sit together and share the laughter. hohohohoho....

of coz.. i miss my room=.= ishh... and air cond=.= derr.. stop bout that. lol... what i did today.. hmm...bought something to cheer my self up.. ^^ fossil has got pple, book shop got no news, i need to go hunt for job. again. sigh...

Getting closer with pple here, most of them are not as bad as i thought. Very nice. I think im sleepy.. cuz i can sense that im talking rubbish here.. lol...miss you guys loads... we'll meet soon. ^^

-Emeralds-

2008-11-06T19:16:00.001+08:00

早上做完ASSIGNMENT。。。睡了一下。。心情好多了。。哈哈哈。。
想通啦。。你们尽管来“攻击” 我吧。。看看你们的耐力强还是我的耐力强。。NGIAK NGIAK。。。姓陈的。。我看你这里烂到不行的臭苹果可以坚持到几时。。看到你的样子。。=。= 真可怜你。。。装出来的人。。毕竟还是丑的。。=。= BLEEEEEE。。。我肥！但是脸皮厚一点的说，我觉得我漂亮过你！HEKKK，因为。。你真的是一个烂到没有得在烂的。。烂苹果！！

唉。。舒服舒服。。。

老娘冲凉去跑步。。。

2008-11-06T11:47:00.001+08:00

这是我今晚PO 的第4篇东西。。

今晚真的睡不着。。现在这个时间唯一可以和我聊天的是它，部落格。。我的样子白痴吗。。为什么每个都把我拿来开玩笑?

在这里。。明明很清楚那些戴着假面具的人。。

为什么就是不敢和她们说我真的很讨厌你们，不要有ASSIGNMENT时才来勾肩搭背呢?！几时，我才会学会说不?几时，我才会不理会别人可不可以顺利毕业呢。。看见你们两个的脸。。我真的想吐！用心对每一个人。。人家会用心对你吗?

今天。。暂时休息一下。。。明天，才继续笑。。可以吗?
因为。。我想当普通电器。。不想当冰箱。。

-冰箱，重来被启动后，就没有休息这个字-

2008-11-06T11:33:00.001+08:00

唉，接了妈妈的电话后。。真的很烦。。。
为什么来到这里。。听到的东西还是关于钱，生意，顾客。
听到的，还是放假回去要做ACCOUNT?
这样。。我宁愿不要回去。。。我不要这样的家。。。
没有一句。。是关心的。。竟然还叫我得空要教妹妹。。。
就连交朋友，都要听她的！！
真的不明白为什么有些人，明明还是朋友时，就不珍惜。。
恶言恶语，伤人不少后，我也已经慢慢忘记了。。
但是她就是不罢休。。老是去黏我妈妈。。。
好啦。。现在我妈妈打来不是关心我，是告诉我别人的孩子多好。。
说我小气。。不珍惜她这样的朋友。。。 [无言]
真的很累。。非常累。。。想回她种种利用我的手段。。想回我怎样被她搞的我对
每个朋友都有戒心。。
真的很伤心。。。为什么她不可以让我好过一点呢。。。为什么要利用我妈妈呢。。。

别人的孩子。。别人的孩子。。别人的孩子。。

My father is handsome...

2008-11-06T10:15:00.001+08:00

Suddenly feel my father is quite handsome... face only=.= lets see

if u only look at his face.. look..

summore look a bit like liu song ren tim~!!

But if u look at his face, with his tummy=.=

sighhhh...more like santa.. lol lol.. aaaaaaaahahahahha...

but still , love him.. ngiak ngiak

-papa santa-

2008-11-06T09:12:00.001+08:00

I think... is better to stay away from the cliff, then falling into it.. again.. cuz this time around is really no joke... I can sense that this is far more challenging than the previous one... I can't bear with the consequences actually.. well.. go back to my normal life is better.. ngiak ngiak..

And.. im gonna collect it all!! bahahhaah.. cuz is damn the cute... @,@

6 more to go.. hohohohohoo....

-lpc-

Happy!!

2008-11-05T09:34:00.004+08:00

Went to the city to search for job today.. then, walked into [Thoughts] to look for the me-to-you bears.. it was so.. nice.. @,@

Was attracted by these lil soft toys series name [blue nose friends] lol.. bought few.. ^^ is obvious, mine is the panda, mei lyn is so tame.. lol. .. ^^ as tame n soh soh dei like the sheep.. lol.. and who else will be the monkey=.= erhem.. the one who is so active all the time.. bahahahahha.. my MD=.= yj...bahahahahhahahahah.. cute not??? aihz.. so nice.. hope u guys like it.. ngiak ngiak..

[blue nose friends!!!]

Walked into the shop that sells kimono dolls again, look into the display cupboard again.. the doll that looks like the ori kimono doll is gone.. really gone.. sigh.. saddd....who knows....

Mahahahahahah... I coincidently walked into a lane with Wan Lin... then, coincidently met Chris again and they were talking about some place call [mall] . Since I hv not been there before, I went in and have a walk after that.

It happens that i walked into a book stor, asking for a vacancies form. Then when i walked out, we saw there's another vacancies available at a muffin stall. While im not interested with it, i start looking around.. then i saw a shop selling cute gadgets.. so , as usual, Im always attracted by these cute toys... When i go into that shop.. I SAW IT!!!!!! IS THE ORIGINAL KIMONO JAP DOLL!! EXACTLY THE SAME!! zabo! now i really understand what is called 塞翁失马焉zhi非fu =.= understand.. but dunno how to write=.= and u know what.. before this when we saw the website, it's written there.. [stock status: GONE FOREVER!!] but i just found it.. bahahahahahahah...the satisfaction.. woooo...

I saw it!!!!! so happy.. bahahahah.. diff dolls rep diff meanin, and this is for sister.. =.= er.. that moment i so hope that is for AUNTY=.= sienz... this doll is call the momiji sister.. lol..

ngiak ngiak.. u owe me a meal~~

momiji~~~~

Oh , then i saw a vacancy in Fossil.. I MUST WORK IN THERE!! I DUN CARE!! hohohohoh.. god bless me.. ^^

-lucky-

Like this song

2008-11-04T06:40:00.002+08:00

Hehe... I've put a new song on my blog.. the name of the song is 买你..cute, isn't it? Buy u.. lol...
Randomly click on some blog and i heard this song.. attracted by the easy going n lazy feel of the song.. lol..

I love Msia UWE as compared to UWE here=.= sienzz...
The weather is getting colder lately.. hmm...
Started to eat veggie n tried my best not to eat potatos and meat lately... m getting fat=.= NO WAY man=.=
Also, mad pple like sk n gang love singing "k" in their room, with youtube on=.= omggggg=.=

siao liao me.. lol.. beh tahan.. hahahahahah...

-brb-

2008-11-03T07:52:00.001+08:00

忽然间有很多感触。。
非常感谢你们，一直都在我身边。。

All the supports, all the helping hands, all the true-est feelings through the heart. (",)

在这里。。我，还是我。。

Same as u guys, stand by all the time, prepare to lend a hand for everything, without any hesitation and complain.

-we rocks-

P/S: instant food rocks , too.

akibat of staying away from home country...

2008-11-02T05:43:00.004+08:00

This is what will happen, when few gals mad of home country's food=.= lets see..

old on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:24 AM):
i miss subang nite life toooooooooooooooooooo...sk
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:24 AM):
yum cha n cheong k!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:26 AM):
I WAN ROTI CANAI KOSONG
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:26 AM):
taiwan crispy chicken
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:26 AM):
tako
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:26 AM):
stop!!!!!!!!!!
c]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:31 AM):
unagi
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:31 AM):
soft shell crab
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:31 AM):
tamago
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:31 AM):
miso soup
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:31 AM):
ramen
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:31 AM):
ikan bakar pudu
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:32 AM):
nasi lemak kampung
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:32 AM):
mcd ayam goreng spicy
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:32 AM):
no no
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:32 AM):
i miss kfc
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:32 AM):
hot n spicy
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:32 AM):
i miss.... zinger burger
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:32 AM):
=.=
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:32 AM):
i miss mixed rice
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:33 AM):
foh foh
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:33 AM):
i miss ham yu fa lam pou
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:33 AM):
satay!!
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:33 AM):
kwai sun
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:33 AM):
haha
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:33 AM):
lok lok!!!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:33 AM):
casamia tom yam!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:33 AM):
bubble tea!!!!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:35 AM):
laksa!!!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:35 AM):
kuay teow!!1
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:35 AM):
i miss see ham!!!!
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:35 AM):
cantonese fry!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:35 AM):
roti kosong, cnai, planta, tisu, telur, bawan
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:35 AM):
kam heong crab!!!!
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:35 AM):
omg
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:35 AM):
hahahahha
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:36 AM):
i want lala!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:36 AM):
yeah crab
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:36 AM):
lala bee hoon!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:36 AM):
balitong
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:36 AM):
iw ant seeh ham!!!
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:36 AM):
FRESH PRAWN
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:36 AM):
=.=
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:36 AM):
i want marmait crab!!!!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:36 AM):
hahah
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:36 AM):
yeah prawn!!!!!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:36 AM):
n crob
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:36 AM):
n crabssss!!!!!!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:36 AM):
sotong goreng!!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:37 AM):
ikan
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:37 AM):
steam fish
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:37 AM):
yit lat lat steam fish!!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:37 AM):
ikan bakar!!!
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:37 AM):
handroll
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:37 AM):
taufu bakar!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:37 AM):
popiah!!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:37 AM):
sushi!!!
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:37 AM):
prawn mee
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:37 AM):
=.=
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:37 AM):
korean bbq!!!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:37 AM):
vietnamese kitchen!!!!
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:37 AM):
ev one mad d
Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:39 AM):
fu zok yi mai
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:39 AM):
bu bu cha cha
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:39 AM):
xai mai lou
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:39 AM):
gei dak sek
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:39 AM):
mngo sai mai lou!!!
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between says (5:40 AM):
i miss fresh mango!!
[Pc]Life goes on...and on...and on...and on.. says (5:40 AM):
cucumber=.=

and it goes on =.= ...

see the danger== omg...

......[food]
-msia rocks-
..........^

2008-11-01T05:52:00.004+08:00

Hi Hi Hi Hi ladies gentleman, AUNTY, uncle, ah pek , ah ma...hello ev body...=.= (qi xin)

Went to the city last few days again, hohoho.. went to feed the swans.. lol...This time, i fed them sainsbury bread.. lol.. why bread? Because.. everytime i bought a loaf of bread, when i finish the 2nd or 3rd pieces, God damn..=.= it expired=.= shoooooot.. so, I bring it to the "river" to feed the swans n ducks.. Lol... The first time I went was last week... They look at me with the super "mei lyn" puppy eyes =.= (nml... u win d.. even the swans here learnt ur style=.=) and i feel so bad..=.= so, i fed them with my indo mee..=.= 2 packets of indo mee..=.= Indo mee can have new slogan d i guess.. "Now Even Swans Can Slirrrrrrp" TM lol.. aaaaaahahhaahahha...=.= lame.... show u the pics.. ngiak ngiaks..oh yea.. i really saw ugly duckling.. really..

Pools of swansss...

See see!! Really got ugly ducklings one !!

Beautiful isn't it?

Lots n lots of swans, makes me feel like eating "xiu ngor" =.=

Oh yea, then on that day, I went n bought two new purse too ^^ by Fred Perry.. ^^ bahahahah..

What else.. hmm oh yea.. lately.. Im addicted to... Kinder's Bueno choc=.= ka-na-sai.=.= lol...

-ok la dats it for now- [ngiaks]

cold=.=

2008-10-29T07:00:00.002+08:00

It's God damn cold today...
The weather has fall drastically=.=
It rains heavily.. and guess what.. its raining, but is ice=.=
I miss the sun=.= ishh....

Ntg special happens these days.... derrrrr....
Sleeping whole day... I hate sleeping in the dark cuz.. everytime i sleep at night..=.= i will hv nightmares.. shooot.. sigh..

-lpc-

2008-10-27T22:10:00.000+08:00

做人要适可而止。。别太过份。。
请相信报应的存在...
河水不犯井水！！！

ME-MO-RY

我的好朋友，好姐妹，她。。。。

.....

The purpose of living?

I thought..

I miss u so much, buddy.

what do you want from me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Emo laaaa

怎么了，你累了，说好的幸福呢。。

There's an end

2 years , 2 months, and 27 days

[justamarshmallowgurl]Add oil to the egg

[justasmalltownboy] 1 + 2 = 26 Huh?

[justamarshmallowgurl]- deepest depression

[justamarshmallowgurl]- mixed feelings

[justasmalltownboy] - Let's play case scenarios

happiness, miserables, and sadness

Blog, Do you know..

short update

I will !! yes i WILL

its been long!

runaway..

Stress and pain in heart

FARK

What a weird feel

God Bless Me

Random..

Shit happens

6,782,536,522

我干！！！！！

Tough Decision

加油！加油！we can do it!

小小感动- a Little touched.

友情是。。。。彩虹~！！ ^^

Can’t wait to go back instead of doing these papers

April - May

Loving me campaign.

Fastest way to prepare to work in the morning. ( 5 min) funny!

Good one!!

Rainbow after the rain

have you ever…

Updates

Okay.. I admit I am emo today. Just today.

Tears means nothing......Smile either

Upside down, Inside out

This entry is an unknown

Where is all my luck? sighhhh

无聊透顶

A Lame Lame story copied from my bro's blog -_=ll (a real sweat one)

这是一个超悲惨的爱情故事...

Blog in Coma

New Start

The Chicken Rice Shop~~~ prorrrpp proopp prorrrp prroop~~~

2nd night in library..

When u overnight in the library..

I just wanna say I MISS YOU 7 lil peebol @@

If I die, I die of assignmentss

UK

R.I.P TO AH POH POH

Malaysia.... maaaaaahhahahahah

Emo nemo once a while

lonely lonely xmas

今日主角-->EMO

The Bottom Line

In Detail

A day, out to field

Random Picss

I am seriously tired.

An Unlucky day

Song, oh song

Lazy bug re-appear

what I got from Birmingham for u guys.

My father is handsome...

Happy!!

Like this song

akibat of staying away from home country...

cold=.=

The Chicken Rice Shop~ prorrrpp proopp prorrrp prroop~